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When my baby turned two months already i thought that its not fair for my parents to be the one to support the needs of my baby financially. since i cant continue my education in that previous college where i studied because i left without any notice and mainly because of what happened to me, its a prestigious school made to mold future teachers and what happened to me was immoral and unethical or against the code of ethics of teachers, so it was impossible for me to go back there. i was offered help from a very dear friend, she says shell be the one to support me financially in my education, that was superb i never expected that someone would give me that much importance, but taking things into consideration that i have a 2 month old baby who's still very young to be left without a mother's personal care, i had to go look for a job and terminate the wonderful offer, i applied in a call center here in the Philippines where i am at and luckily i got myself a job with a salary enough to suffice my baby's needs and im glad to share that ill be turning 1 year in this company this coming june 2. with my job and with some kind-hearted friends who gave financial support i was able to throw a birthday party for my baby on his first ever birthday and now that my son is a year older now, i am slowly picking up the pieces of where i left off,, slowly but surely ; i enrolled my self in a university here, i took some subjects coz ill still be working full time in the morning and ill go to school in the afternoon and i know in the near future ill be able to finish what ive started.
its almost june here and classes here in the Phil starts in june and i am soooo excited!!!
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,,,WHEN GOD CLOSES A DOOR, HE SURELY OPENS A WINDOW.... :-)
XYZA?! xyza is pregnant?! the xyza who was labeled "HOPE AMONG THE SIBLINGS" by his parents?, the one who didnt gave tuition fee-headache to her father during college because she was a scholar?yep! she got pregnant alright!
These were just the common things I hear in the neighborhood in those days, i reminisce the time when i got pregant at an early age...i was 19 way back then (i just turned 21 by the way :)) when i got pregnat i was in my third year in college taking Bachelor in Elementary Education speciallizing in SpEd (special education). Among my sisters, i was the one labeled "hope of the family" because they say i was born with a halo over my head, in other words compared to my sisters im the one who does most good deeds, the one with the most talents and skills and the one who academically performs better, im not saying that my sisters are dumb, the heck, we were all born smart only that im the one who was focused on everything so-to-say. i was used to hearing the good praises from my parents, relatives and neighbors for my achievements and accomplishments most especially in school. i was the silent type, so no one could ever imagine that in just a snap, their so-called "angel" got pregnant. just imagine the shock my family had; my friends, classmates and the gossip-thirsty neighbors were all so shocked,, the time when the news exploded it was like a movie in slow motion,, like everything stopped for a moment; as i close my eyes right now i can remember the gossiping, the mocking eyes, the shocked expressions on their faces,,it was absurd though the truth still remains that i was pregnant.
There are past events in our life that we dont ever want to remember and this is just one of the "major events" that shall i say marked a big stain in my history. For 9 months i was flooded and bombarded with sufferings but i embraced it all with no regrets, though some of my friends whom i tought were true left me hanging, but still im so blessed for a few never left and even helped picked up the broken pieces of me and helped me to be whole again. and i thanked GOD for making these few people a part of my infamous life. :)
on the 29th day of march 2008, i gave birth to a healthy baby boy whom i named GODWIN MATHEW, (Godwin means " a gift from God" , and Mathew means "a friend of God") and since then my life was never the same again, i have an angel who makes my day complete, who makes me smile even when im tired, who makes me shout "i dont have any regrets!!!"....
so for those people with similar case as mine,, DONT LOOSE HOPE..GOD HAS HIS OWN PLAN FOR YOU, A MUCH BETTER ONE. HE DOESNT DO THINGS FOR NO REASON, TAKE IT FROM ME :)
I thank God for all the wonderful blessings He bestowed me. I went to church today thanking Him for the great miracles in life I have witnessed. At 21 I believe I have become a wiser person. I know he has a great plan for me. Do you believe women mature ahead of men? There are many factors that make such thing a fact. Yet I lay everything down and call it a day since it's a happy birthday to me.;-)
